|I thirst for his lips...
||[Apr. 14th, 2004|03:11 pm]
D.I.Y. or DIE!
Alright, i admit it! I ALREADY miss Alfredo. He's left for a 5-day trip to New York with his parents. I missed him yesterday in realizing i couldn't pick up the tele, dial his numbers up and expect to hear his voice. Anyways, it's not that bad (and it shouldn't be), i'm just not used to this abscense of him. I was thinkin' about it last night and...this boy is more than any girl could ask for. If i were conjure up a "dream boy" he couldn't compare to the one i have now. I'm not trying to flatter or anything, i really couldn't be any more serious about the matter. Of course, Alfredo isn't perfect...he's irresponsible and sometimes immature, but really those problems are very trivial. I'm the problem in the relationship. I wish i was blind to my problems, but the pathetic thing is i know exactly how i'm acting most of the time. Maybe i feel a sense of security in unbalancing our relationship. I don't really know...but maybe my therapist (if i get one) will help determine what's the matter with me.
If Jaynee were to read this, she'd be real upset that she hasn't been mentioned...reason being, she's in New York too, for a 6-day trip. Jay has called me 3 times already, it's almost as if she hasn't even left. How is it that i miss Alfredo the day he leaves, and i dread Jay's return? Oh yeah, Jaynee plans to spend THREE DAYS with me. Eww. We're going to be so sick of each other after that but you know, good times. I love you Jaynee Rose, i'm just playing around with all the negativity! (No, i'm really not.)